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まだまだだね！
date: Thursday, May 26, 2011
shall do some blogging while waiting for my videos to load heheh!
have i mentioned that i've started watching prince of tennis lately! HAHA! :D
started watching cos i was so bored on monday! and proby too inspired from my badminton game. and now im alr at ep 39!
feel like an otaku all of a sudden.
i guess once i stop working at seimpi, i'll need to start thinking how to occupy myself during free time other than anime spam!
need to make use of the extra time to 修养修养！
i sound like one of those 武侠小说 characters don't i?
まだまだだね！
mada mada dane!
anyway, don't think i've mentioned this but i guess officially from tomorrow onwards, i am going to be part of Park View Primary's Alumni Exco as Publicity Executive!
i don't know what made me agree to jia ying's invitation but i did.
so i guess that's that.
it could be a start of something new. or a sign to my future. i don't know. im superstitious like that.
but i've really been thinking a lot recently.
things pertaining to 'my calling'.
and i've been thinking a lot about my 'past'.
as i grew older, i became less straightforward, more anti social.
以前的我想做什么，就做什么。从来不犹豫。有时是根本不经过大脑。
现在虽然还是时常不经过大脑，但却总是犹豫不决。
少了以往的那股勇气，那份魄力。
真的，真的，好想找回那个 ‘我’。
以前的‘蔡秀真’到底去了哪里？
i used to be so daring.
i used to always have that strong desire to want to try out everything, to want to go for anything.
now?
i'm just like that.
but i don't want to be like 'that'.
i want to be something more, need to be something more!
i want to do things MY way.
i've never been the kind to sit behind and watch. i shouldn't be the kind to.
i've never been the kind to just follow the crows blindly. i shouldn't be the kind to.
i'm not the the kind to 'do what the Romans would do if I'm in Rome.'
i never should be that kind.
even if there's really nothing left for me, i'll create something out of that nothingness. i will.
after all, 'A great calligrapher does not need to choose his her brush."
i'll just be me, and believe that i'll do fine.
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11:56 pm
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