bottled it up

and the reason is because my eyes are still feeling sore from the crying just now.

and im so glad that my mum has already gone into her room to sleep because my eyes and nose still looked pretty red when i reached home even though i have stopped crying for a while already.

i dont really wanna dwell on this episode too much.. i think i have made myself clear enough on my twitter.

but these are the lessons i have drawn upon today:

1. Guys can really be Male Chauvinist Pigs at times. It's in their Y genes.

they have this constant need, to make themselves feel better, even if it means bringing others down.

2. It's okay if you use not-so-nice words on someone once or twice unintentionally or purely as joke. The most that person will feel is a stinging pain. But repeatedly use of hurtful words can cause a stabbing pain.

giving brains to some people is such a waste. for they never ever use their head to think before they say something. and how they never ever use their head to analyse a situation before acting on something. guys particularly. it's a no wonder why they say men are less sensitive creatures than girls. SOMETHING IS MISSING THERE OBVIOUSLY.

3. Never ever let someone take advantage of your generous behaviour.

because seriously speaking, some people will NEVER appreciate it. they will not only take you for granted but will only continue to step on you. i am never going to keep mum again if i feel that something is going to far beyond the edge or that a comment has become far too much for me to accept. it's because i always easily laugh them off that people think 'it's okay' to continue. actually,

it has never been okay.

my horoscope has warned me on point number 3 this morning. i should have heeded it.

and the last point is the most important one.

4. Always remain humble and modest, no matter how much you have achieved, how far you have go, or how high you have climbed.

reason being,

人站在高处的时候一旦忘本，就没有办法爬得更高，看到更美的风景了。

i may have cried, but each tear has made me stronger than before.

p/s: im not being rational here at all i know. and i sound too much like a feminist. still cant seem to think about this episode in a calm manner though i've tried. but i guess the amount of hurt that i've received today has just gone over the top.

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