is the monsoon rain here alr? im feeling so cold that i have to wear a jacket at home. why doesn’t singapore houses have one of those room heaters like how japanese houses have?

i’m eating my breakfast now so decided to come and do a quick blogging since i have quite a lot on my mind now. i don’t really like to eat salted rice in the morning but it’s the only food i can find, and my aunty has instilled the ‘breakfast is essential’ thought in me and so i have no choice but to eat the salted rice.

decided to go to bed early last night cos didnt think it was appropriate to burn the midnight oil. wasn’t very early in the end. i didn’t manage to sleep until 12am. my heart was beating so fast and i don’t even know why and i had to take a few deep breaths to try to calm myself down but it wasn’t helping either cos it was just causing my heartbeat to further accelerate. thankfully, i managed to sleep in the end.

woke up this morning at 7.40am in a shock. shock meaning your eyes go flying open in the middle of a dream and then your heartbeat starts to beat very fast and then you pick up the courage to check your handphone for the time of the day and thank god for two things – you aren’t taking a morning paper today and you haven’t missed your afternoon paper. and then feel relieved. i wanted to wake up at 6 plus to study. you know the sleep early wake up early policy? but apparently mum called me when i just woke up to tell me she wasn’t able to wake me up at 6 plus successfully. i must have been in a very deep sleep cos i don’t even remember her trying to call me up. i guess i should feel proud i manage to wake up at 7 plus still. but im so afraid that i won’t be able to wake up in the morning tmr. oh, and i didn’t even hear my alarm clock ring at 6.45am.

i really hope i’ll be able to wake up on time tmr or i’ll never forgive myself. i’m setting 3 handphone alarms, which i don’t really trust cos they aren’t my phone alarms (not that my own phone’s alarms have been very effective either). i don’t really think i can depend on my mum’s wake up calls. im predicting my uncle may call me tomorrow to see if im awake since he leaves the house at around 6 plus for work. kenny has offered a SYSTEM to make sure that i wake up which i appreciate a lot but found it hilarious nonetheless. i need to sms him 90 minutes before each paper or he will start calling my house and if i still don’t pick up, he’s gonna change route to my house and knock on my door. it’s quite a good plan actually but i just feel that im pretty pathetic to need such reliance. but i know it definitely won’t be hilarious, and that it definitely will be worse than mere ‘pathetic’ if i were to miss my paper.

my aunty has just called me to see if i woke up. had a feeling she will call to check on me. well, i’ve finished my food too and i guess that’s a call for me to go start mugging and see what little i can achieve. but my mental state is definitely better than last night after the good 7 hours plus of sleep.

gotta go! shall wish myself all the best. (: