gourmet!

i've really got a lot on my plate now.

woke up this morning and cant even get out of my bed to brush my teeth first thing as i was too busy mass messaging the class abt stuff, and shooting club stuff as well, and guides stuff too. and was replying to various messages and only finally manage to go wash up like half an hour later i think.

shooting camp stuff is just making me nuts because the preparation is not even 50% completed yet!! ahhhhhhhhh! and i have to confirm a lot of irritating stuff such as attendance and shirt sizes and it doesnt help seriously when some people apparently saw your online messages but choose not to reply you even when you've highlighted the urgency there. seriously!

AND SHOOTING CAMP IS LIKE ONLY 4 DAYS AWAY FOR GOODNESS SAKE!

was trying to settle class outing stuff asap cos many ppl's been asking me about it so feel like i have the need to get it done like real soon. so now's like confirming the attendance rate and everyth but not whole class reply me yet! CRIES T.T and this is not even the hardest part. the hardest part is planning the food and activities what not.

THE OUTING IS 7 DAYS AWAY!!!

then last but not least there is guides. i finally said yes. and now all im doing is freaking out cos seriously i really feel so uncertain about this. im so afraid of screwing up and making everything go wrong. im so afraid to be under the seniors' observation. ahhhhhhhhh! im so afraid that i will teach the wrong thing, so afraid that i'll end up embarrassing myself. so afraid that i'll be the irresponsible xiuzhen during the camp. so afraid of this, so fearful of that!! AHHHHHHH!

*pulls hair*

but something in me just keep shouting, "come on! you know you wanna do this."

and hell yeah, i do.

but that's not enough to stop me from freaking out.

and i think the thought never really occurred to me until kathy mam knocked it on my head just now...

GUIDES CAMP (prep) IS ONLY 10 DAYS AWAY!!!

geegeegeegee babybabybaby

ohmyGAH!

all these keeping track of deadlines is stressing me out seriously.

life's too short to complain. but i dont even have any life in the first place to complain. how grateful i am.

NOT.

cos LAST BUT NOT LEAST, there's SA2.

1, 2, 3..

HAIS!

Min D for everything. that will decide my fate.

seriously, min D for everyth isnt that hard, considering 2 of my subjects are alr well above D. and i feel so good abt math these days im even targeting it to be a C.

but the problem is my chem!! ):

am currently in the middle of constructing a calendar alike thing in the hope of getting things and my chapter revisions completed. i hope it works. =/

have fun, chua xiu zhen. ):

p/s: i think i REALLY have an issue with saying NO to unreasonable requests. i seriously think i have a problem with CONFRONTATION.

i shall aim to find my way to achieving Self-Actualisation.

actually, im not even sure what it means. but Mia from the Princess Diaries keep inspiring me regarding this self-actualisation thingy.

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