and i wavered.

i pondered.

i thought about my dreams.

i know some of my friends dont have any dreams. i feel sad for them. im glad i did. i hope they will find theirs soon.

my only problem is i have too many.

i want to be a HOTEL MANAGER! i want to work in a five star hotel! i would LOVE to work in fullerton hotel (cos it's grand), or swissotel (cos it's so freaking high and i get to see the lovely sights). that would be fabulous. absolutely fabulous.

imagine the people i'll get to meet, like foreigners! i love talking to foreigners! and hotels are so pretty! they make people feel so safe and comfortable. the staff are so friendly. all these make me feel warm. i want to make other people feel this way too. :D

but working in the tourism industry can easily help me meet foreigners too..

then again, i want to be a Public Relations manager/ officer. it's front line, i get to meet people, lots of people, and liase with clients and talk to people! design publicity programmes to improve the image of the organisation. again, the world become a nicer place! improving relationships, networking, it's something new everyday! there's mobility too. (:

i thought of being a teacher too. but i dont know what subject to teach..

then i really really want my own CAFE! located at somewhere quiet, and scenic, away from the city. two levels high. like a tree top cafe maybe? open concept, transparent so u can see the scenery outside, or you may want curtains? natural. nice comfy seats. you know, where friends can come in and chit chat, and people can come in relax. to read, or to play games, just chill out. how nice that would be huh. :D

i thought of becoming a wedding planner too! i'll have my own wedding studio.. with all the pretty pretty wedding gowns and suits in my shop. the nicely dressed up mannequins. chandelier light in my shop, right at the center of the ceiling. floral wallpaper. flowers. an elevated platform, a panel of mirrors, changing room with a walk way, steps, (i kinda had the whole shop interior figured out) and happy couples will come in, and i'll have the honour of planning their biggest day, wedding, honeymoon, everything! (:

but i dont think im cut out to be a business woman. im so dumb i probably wont even know if im making a loss or a profit..

but i got no idea how to reach there.

the goals seem so far away..

i feel tired just thinking about the distance.

so aimless and lost. and confused. =/

are my dreams worth risking?

im sure they are. but i cant seem to gather that kind of strength and muster that kind of courage..