watashi wa paboh desu.

dear chuaxiuzhen,

NAN PABOH YA?!

hais.

missed math tuition for the SECOND time today.

guess why? cos i overslept.

as rachel and wanzhen will say, "what's new?"

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IM NEVER GOING TO SLEEP BEFORE MY TUITION AGAIN. ><

cos to my bodyclock, a nap means > 3 hours. ><

gosh. mr foo must think im not serious about tuition. ):

but that's not true. i look forward to his lessons every week. and actually, i look forward to math lessons by mrs tay every week too. more than econs actually. im surprised by this change in this new year. but i feel more positive about math everyday.

so, now i have to go for make-up lesson tmr. but tmr's lessons are ppl whom i dunno. ):

and that means i'll be damn busy tmr. my whole day will be packed. cos tmr morning i have shooting training at 8.30am. all the way until 11 plus. then 12 plus i have OGL training. until 4 plus. then 4.30pm i have to run off for tuition. and that'd be until 7pm onwards i think.

):

and i have monthly shoot on sunday. and im the ONLY TPJC-ian among all the other jc students in my detail! >< there are RJC-ians, NJC-ians, MJC-ians, CJC-ians, AJC-ians and ACJC-ians in my detail! ):

and somemore i've been underperforming.

coach must have did it on purpose. he knows i do well under great pressure. ><

SCARED LAH! ><

talked to liangying on the phone just now and i realised she's always the first person who comes to my mind whenever i need someone to rant to or confide in. (:

2 hours of chat. precious time.

i have many friends. but few i can really confide in and call my true friends.

and liang, this is what i wanted to tell you just now but didnt. you never fail to surprise me. i really really had not expect to be so much like me. yea i know we're similar in fashion sense but i always thought of you as being a more realistic person than me. but after today's conversation, I GUESS NOT. :D

i think the thing abt bffs, is that even when you are bffs for years, and you alr know each other upside down and inside out, you're still able to find out new things about each other. think that's the good thing about being in different schools. cliche much. =p

do confide in me more yea, and share with me more like just now, no matter how mundane you think the details are. cos i think you may have felt whatever you told me just now is nothing much, but to me, that's a lot of thing. a lot, a lot of new things. (:

or i'll always feel like this friendship is off balance. =/

sadly, i find myself unable to really confide in anybody else in clique of 8 except liangying alr. (i dont even know if i can call it a clique anymore). im sorry if anyone of the clique has to chance upon this. i really thought that we could last. i had a strong faith in our circle of friendship. but it turned out not to be. ):

oh and liang, you know what? i think you are truly the ONLY ONE on earth who has the guts to BITCH ABT ME IN FRONT OF ME and just start listing down and counting off the worst things about me without needing my permission and without worrying that i'll get mad. kudos to you for that. (:

and that's when i realise i really dont need a lot of friends. just a few that i can really BE MYSELF in front of, that i can be all unglam and not have to worry about anything, that i can joke with and not be worried that i'll offend and vice versa, that i can drop the formal language with, that love my silliness and retarded acts just as much as i love theirs.

the wonderful thing about friendship.

and much as i hate to say this, i guess you are right. it's hard to find friendships like that in jc.

thanks, liang, for being such a wonderful bff. (i know you must be thinking: omg so cliche. stupid xiuzhen, say this kind of things on the blog. later ppl think we are les how? HAHAS. DO APPRECIATE IT OKAY! IT'S NOT AN EVERY DAY THING THAT I SAY THIS KIND OF CLICHE STUFF. AND BE HONOURED!)

(:

wanted to do differential equation tutorial to compensate my missing math tuition today but my eyes are feeling heavy alr. so i think im gonna go sleep now! toodles! (:

what if i had said yes?

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