moodswings

im still feeling very moody and the thing is i got no idea why.

i am very tired and am currently suffering from irritating eye bags and dark eye rings.

just cant get enough sleep.

realise i can really sleep anywhere under any kinds of conditions like what valerie had commented yesterday.

yea like pig i know. u dont have to say anyth.

less than 5 hours of sleep for past few days.

countless dreams and dreams prevent u from getting full rest and this im feeling very very annoyed at. bcos of this, i've been drifting in and out of sleep, like every two three hours?

pekceked.

and when i dont get enough sleep, i feel irritated and will be in a bad mood.

or is it bcos im in a bad mood that im having dreams?

dunno lah. dont have the energy to think of egg-chicken questions.

feeling disappointed, discouraged, unmotivated, hopeless. guess he's disappointed too. idk what to do.

i dont know what to do.

and im freaking scared and that should have driven me into making an action,

but i dont know what to do.

i hate this part of me.

feeling more guilty than im supposed to.

i hate changes.

hate hiding things but it's the only way.

rather keep it to myself than ...

the sunflower that rachel gave me as pressie is turning a lil brownish and im very sad. suspecting that the other sunflower bouquet is attracting ants into my room too.

sushi is getting thinner and im very sad too. ):

beautiful things just have to disappear quickly dont they? how sad.

rainbows too. before u know it or capture their beauty, they will be gone.

i dont know what is it abt balloons and sunflowers and rainbows that attract me so much. maybe it's their temporary beauty. maybe it's the part where i have to see them go and that's when i learn how to appreciate such beautiful things more and learn that some things have to be let go at the same time.

i dont know why im being so philosophical now.

this post is getting so emo. im outta here.

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